My experience with bipolar has been going on for the last 15 years. I spent the majority of my twenties dealing with deep lows and hypomania in the form of severe agitation and anxiety. I knew something was off, but could not put my finger on it. I finally started getting therapy on and off in my early thirties and tried different antidepressants. However, they all seemed to not work and I took that as a sign that the medications were not for me. I think I spent a lot of time in denial about how I was living life in a fog. I had no motivation, being a mom wasn't enjoyable at all, and I felt guilt about all of it. One of the biggest changes I've had to work on is communication.