I was also experiencing a lot of manic episodes, suicidal thoughts, rapid cycling, deep depression, and drinking alcohol a lot. One night I completely broke. I had racing thoughts, stressing out, talking fast to myself, acting nervous, manic, and was suicidal and had a plan to end my life. This episode helped me to make a decision and choose to seek help at a local hospital [then transferred to a mental hospital]. While I was admitted, I saw a counselor and a team of doctors, and that's when I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 and depression in 2013.